Influence

Teenage hormonal influence is almost like duress.

I felt forced to say so many things, to shock or to impress.

As teens melt into adulthood, I learn what to say and how to say it.

To hurt, for chaos, or as a joke, I learned to play it.

With the chemical influence from social split, I was not immune.

This time I payed, and you played. We led each other to doom.

You don't know how I've questioned. I don't know if you cried.

I remember what I wanted, but worse, remember why.

I apologize. I regret my behavior, but the real sins

Were not so much in the acts, but in the reasons.