Why?

Why...?
...Mommy?
...is the sky blue?
...can't I grow up?
...do the good die young?
...did she leave me for another?
...can't she just love me?
...do I have to work so hard for this?
...can't anyone take the time to understand me?
...should I want anything more than her, the children, and the rest of my life?
...have she and the children made such a mess of my life?
...doesn't he realize that he doesn't know everything yet?
...can't I go to work for you anymore?
...does she still love me?
...did she leave me alone?
...have all the others gone?
...treat me like a child?
...am I so blue?
I know...
...why.

Was Forced

Was Forced to work in poetry
but now – it felt a little free.
Though stilted in its filler-verse
a cub-idea begins to nurse.
And from my cranial loins may come
a sister-cub to join the son.

How I Won for Losing

We were found in fall's shade morning,
under sky of clouded light.
Our loss – begun that moment –
ends now – a winter's night.

I saw our fate that moment;
I knew our losing had begun.
As youth reduces fear of death,
So you went blithely on.

Sometimes I would ignore my fate
but still would talk of times
when I had lost some other things
that lingered in my mind.

Those mishaps made me question;
wounded pride and mourning hurt.
I did not save a treasured friend;
I was let go from work.

But this? Twas not so bitter,
though it did leave me flat.
The only joy is triumph, and
you never gave me that.

I've lost the range of rummage
but this one thing I've found:
I'd rather be alone – but right –
than the other way around.